True Nakedness

My experience (almost) baring it all…

This recent full moon has seriously shown me that no matter how much I think I’m in control.. this world is still greater than I. The last few days has been so off for me. I have felt completely disconnected to everyone around me, myself, and the Earth. Even trying to do the simplest tasks have been nothing but challenging. Picking out an outfit to wear left me laying on the floor, making loud angry noises, finding something to eat resulted in an outburst of tears and an overwhelming feeling of pity for myself. Home all alone, and I am acting completely out of control.

What to do?

A good friend of mine and I had plans to have a beach day. In my state, I wasn’t sure how I was going to accomplish this… It was already mid afternoon and I was still at step 1 in my daily activities. I called him to tell him what I was going through, not really expecting him to fully understand what I was expressing.. but to my surprise he understood fully. What a lovely Universe to give me friends like this… So grateful.

He told me he was having the same issues today, I suddenly felt a little bit more love come my way. Even though I couldn’t exactly handle being in public, or in anyone’s company, I wanted to be in his. We proceeded to meet, and went out to Wreck Beach. If you are not from Vancouver, Wreck is the only beach you are free to bare all, if you so desire to. I had never been here before.

The second, and I mean the very second we got there, my inner and outer states did a complete 180. I felt at peace with all these carefree and accepting souls. I felt at home, and rejuvenated. I bought a dress as soon as we got there, from one of the vendors set up.. to me this dress symbolized a different world. I| was a different person here, I was natural here, I was just me.

I took off my dress and bared my breasts… the few nerves I had left me instantly. I could breathe. I felt inspired by everyone I was sharing this space with. Watching people walking around smiling, loving, and accepting everyone else, bodies and minds. What a fucking beautiful place. Looking into the eyes of my gorgeous friend made me smile, this is what life is about. Life is about peace, beauty, happiness, laughter, sunlight, nature, connection. I was hit with a profound realization I am in charge of all these things for myself. I do not need to succumb to anything less, I am a powerful force meant to exist in my highest form and capabilities. All those things that seemed heavy before, were now blessings along my path… bringing me to this point of change.

It became crystal clear that I must channel my creative and sexual energies to serve both others and myself. I am blessed with a beautiful body, and am surrounded by love everywhere I go. So easy it is to get lost and become weak.

I am carefree. I am pure love.

I have talents. I have two hands I can make things with. I have gifts to give to others, I am here to serve. I can live by serving. When there is passion, there is a path. I am taking the first steps towards an amazing future.

I live in a world where no limits exist. I am CAPABLE. I am FREE. Today I start living as I want to, living in my desires, and creating a world I thrive in and am in love with.

My eyes, heart, soul, mind and body are opening.

Being Who You Truly Are

There is a wonderful quote I love by Andre Gide-
“It is better to be hated for what you are, than to be loved for what you’re not.”

Sigh. That felt good to read.

It can be hard to be your authentic self all the time… in fact I’m convinced nobody has truly succeeded at this. With the amount of people there are in the world, social media, and other people’s standards, it’s easy to feel lost and misunderstood; and even more easy to feel like giving in to what you’re made to think you “should” be instead.

Because of certain things I’ve gone through, the ups and downs, hurts, loves and how I’ve evolved and grown, I of course like everybody, have developed a certain way of living and an idea for myself regarding what I want and need. When it comes to relationships, I desire and feel comfortable with a more “open concept” of loving. I’m talking about a free, boundless love and connection in which both parties don’t live in fear or feed the elements of worry, jealousy, envy, past scar tissue, or act as though the other is their property, in which they only hold rights to. Yes this includes having sex with other people, in a healthy, open, and loving approach.

When I share this with men who are interested in me romantically, whether long-term or short-term, I am met with not respect or efforts of understanding, but anger. Those who I have expressed openly with, have not yet seemed to accept the concepts I speak of, and the emotions and needs I identify with. It can be frustrating, and hurtful at times, as I have been called things such as “dangerous, selfish, slutty, immature, blind, untrustworthy, broken, damaged, stupid, trashy” etc… the list honestly goes on. Why is it that when I open up to people, and be my honest and most authentic self, with only the best intentions of communication, I am given back such ugly responses?

I admit at times, it has felt as if this will never change, and a part of me starts to wonder: “Am I all these things?” How fucked up is that?

I am writing this for those of you who have felt this too because of someone’s, or a group of people’s limited beliefs and mindsets. It’s important to know that there is nothing wrong with you for wanting something different of the social norm, and that whatever you desire is yours to take hold of and achieve. I am at a point where having someone to truly accept me as I am, while helping me grow into a better more conscious person, would be amazing… However, what I need most is to get behind myself, take my control back in order to power through all those detrimental and fear based comments to bring myself into a more enlightened place, where I will attract the right people to appear into my life.

This is my body. This is my mouth. This is my mind. This is my heart. This is my freedom.
And I will use it as I please, with no apologies.

I am done feeling as though I “owe” explanations to others. I am done expending wasting energy explaining who I am to people committed to misunderstanding me. I am ready to let go of caring what people may think of me.

Affirmations:
I am ready to live and love with my whole self.
I understand people may try to hurt me with words and put me down, in order for them to feel safe/secure.
I deserve what I want.
I love myself for all that I am.
I do not judge myself.
I am worthy of love that does not exist in a cage.
I can create ANYTHING.

Remember that you hold all the powers of what happens in your life, if you do not use your own, someone else will use theirs. Let’s take our control back and start proudly representing our highest selves. I love you all.

~Peace and Love,

J.

No More “Sorry’s”!

Lately I have come across a few articles, videos and speeches about apologizing.
Let me ask you something: how many times today have you said “I’m sorry”?
Really think about it.

For me, this started years ago… I recognized and heard myself countless times, apologizing for things that are of my human rights. I caught myself saying sorry, when I was really sorry for nothing at all!

Have you ever spoken your mind, and then apologized for it straight after? Not because you are sorry, but to most likely appease the other person’s feelings. How about that time where you  almost walked right into someone turning a corner, and both of you were quick to verbalize everything you are sorry for. Why are we sorry for having opinions, expressing ourselves, turning a corner…living!? Why have we begun to incorporate this phrase into our everyday activities and experiences?

There is something very small about apologizing when no apology is necessary, it is disempowering. Our words are ours to choose, and our words are how we portray ourselves. We are born with the freedom, and the service to say what we mean, and mean what we say. We are holding out on the world, if we are holding out on ourselves. The world doesn’t need “I am sorry”… she needs “I am.”

Powerful examples of “I am”:

1. I am honest with myself, and others.
2. I laugh when a stranger and I almost run into each other, it reminds me to take some time to slow down and appreciate fully.
3. I can tell someone news opposite of what they desire, without apologizing based on their feelings.
4. I am secure with myself to know when to apologize so I genuinely mean it.
5. I love myself so much, that I do not alter who or what I am.

I personally have had it with the useless apologies. There is absolutely nothing sexy about it… agree?
It’s about time we all learn to just BE- without feeling guilty about it.

Peace and Love as always,

~Jasmine

When It Comes To That Family Thing…Dynamics and All

I woke up today feeling a bit strange, and when I say strange, I might, just might mean.. overwhelmed, stressed, and as if I carry all responsibility.

Today is my beautiful mother’s birthday, “Happy Birthday Mumma dear!” The last week I have been trying to plan something, at least a dinner, or getting together, and neither my sister or mum have been able to answer the phone or respond with any information at all. It’s made me feel a bit overwhelmed, and I’ll say it, annoyed! I don’t feel these types of emotions that often, and I am for the most part, quite relaxed and not easily perturbed, but wow am I feeling this today!

While I want to prevent this post from becoming a rant and something I’ll look back on later with more “enlightenment”… I can’t help but feel the need to verbalize everything I want them to know. I feel undervalued and unappreciated. I naturally take the role of leader in my family, and I truly do exert a lot of energy towards their well-being, needs and wants. I think about them every day and how I can help them and take care of them better, now in the present as well as also in the future.

Is there a greater lesson in all of this for me?

My mother isn’t only my mother, but my sister. My brother isn’t just my brother, but also my friend, and my sister isn’t just a sister to me, but a daughter. They represent so much more to me, and reflect who I am. Each with different and unique personalities, they are beautiful. We have gone through many things, and are still going through a few long-lasting experiences that just haven’t finished with us yet, we love, and try our best.

I should turn this into gratitude.

I really am grateful that I have such beautiful beings to share a family tree with. I have learned invaluable lessons from each of them, and we are all on our own journeys. I am grateful I know I always have people to go to in a time of need, or desperation, or if I ever become very lost. Our love we give each other is unconditional, core-based love; I know I can become anything and I will still be loved.

Much of this weight I feel, I put on my own shoulders. I take over most responsibility, guidance, and leadership, because this is what they require of me. This is my service to them, and the role I have been placed in. I of course have the freedoms to change this, but I know I never will. What I can do is understand that I may not be understood all the time, and in turn be there to understand myself. None of us can truly understand one another completely…

I must also remember that I cannot fix what is not mine.

 

 

Thanks for listening ❤

~Love and Peace,
J.

How You Spend Your Days, Is How You Spend Your Life

So about a month and a half ago I manifested myself a job that I wanted, or thought that I wanted, and while I learned just how powerful my intentions and manifestations can be, I also learned something even more valuable: the importance of staying true.

I’ve worked mostly in the service based industry throughout my working life thus far; the restaurant business to get a bit more exact. Being a vegetarian for pretty well all these years, and going vegan this last year, I’ve always had to make a sacrifice with the food I am serving, recommending (as in pretending to eat and enjoy), and surrounding myself with. I suppose it had never really bothered me, or I didn’t really think too deeply about it. I was used to being the odd one out and having to modify the crap out of everything I ordered. The place I have just started working at is a higher end restaurant, that prides themselves in the food they serve, which hey, I give them credit for and counts for something, as every other place I’ve worked at most of the staff gets sick of the food pretty fast.  But it was when I was cramming the menu in my brain, getting ready for my food test, when I realized, I don’t want any of this knowledge in my head.

Fast forward a bit… I can’t bring myself to enjoy working here. This job would be a means for me to make good money, but you know what? It’s just not worth the sacrifice. I feel like I am betraying who I am every time I go in for a shift, not to mention I’m required to wear heels for those 8 looooooong hours.

THE LESSON:

While the last few weeks have been tiring and only leaving me with achy feet, I am grateful for it all. What better way to realize the importance in how and what you spend your days doing? I have re-affirmed now that I am perfect as I am, and it is not only unnecessary, but unhealthy to try to force myself into a lifestyle and environment in which I don’t fit in.

I have a vision for myself and I am choosing today to stay true to that, keep my goals in sight, and to love the journey getting there . I am striving to be more impeccable with my word, so I will leave respectively and honestly. However, I have already begun manifesting new and more “me” opportunities. While it was never much of a concern of mine in the past, it is for me now to enjoy and love how I spend my days… and my work is naturally a large part of that.

It never feels good to lose alignment with yourself. It can cause you to feel heavy, depressed, confused, lonely and disconnected. At times I even had thoughts that there must be something wrong with me, and that I wasn’t cooperating as I should be. What nonsense! I could see that my progress and state was quickly spiraling, so I sat still, gave myself some love and positive feedback, and allowed myself to express. In a matter of minutes I had all the answers and solutions I needed. Amazing! I say “No!” to molding and doing internal “surgeries” on ourselves, and “Yes!” to some more self lovinnnnn’.

Love and Peace and Smiles,

J.

A Woman’s Essence: A Message and Poem.

She is made of earth
A fuel to fire
Part of that fire
She holds inside, and it burns.

Her fire embraces a life force
With wisdom and desire
The sparkle in her eyes
The understanding in her embrace

She walks along her path
Each one of us different
Sometimes she gets lost and
Struggles to find beauty within herself

The tears that flow
No one else sees
Held in private captivity
Each day a new beginning

Not locked in
But not quite free
She exists in a world
Obsessed with flaws and greed

Days have become personal battles
That line between too skinny
And too fat
Breasts too big, too flat

Our daughters don’t want “to be ugly”
Too scared to be themselves
Unique beauty is hard
Authenticity over-rated

A life where she thrives
A world that supports a girl
As she is, who she is
Is where I want to live.

Ladies:
Empower your feminine
She is your essence
She is your soul, your light
She is the solution of love

Love your face, love your feet
Taste your skin, watch it glow
Your breasts are life givers
Your energy needs to flow

Support your cause, your body
Be a ripple, please
Of change and balance
That our Mother Earth so badly needs.

The Power of Femininity

Who is She? She is strong, intuitive, beautiful, innocent, experienced, wise, understanding, loving, affectionate, seductive, confident, sexual, intelligent… these are her powers.

As women, we hold certain powers and intuitions different than the men we share this beautiful earth with. When we restrict ourselves or suppress what makes us shine, smothering our own fire, we create more problems on Mother Earth, as well as in our own lives.

It’s clear today that a shift is being made in how women are viewed, understood and cherished. It is because of this shift, that I am writing this now, and have started my own journey towards getting to know my Goddess self as well as my true potential. However, when an old mindset is changed, or changing, it can be hard to release because of how much resistance these beliefs have been creating.

In every woman lies the sacred ingredients of creation, necessary for regeneration and rebirth. Without the full energies and presence of the Feminine, nothing could be born. The world, right now buried by masculine consciousness, needs the love and attention of the Divine Feminine spirit. In our spirits, we hold the secrets and wisdom in bringing the world’s soul back to being balanced and thriving.

Divine Feminine energy is comprised of qualities such as love, understanding, compassion, nurturing, and empathy with others. It has been mistaken that these qualities are in a sense, weaker than the qualities naturally given to men. This is not true as living our authentic lives, and being a natural woman, is the most empowering action we could take. Too many women, in this age of men, have succumbed to the masculine energy and adopted it as their own, not realizing they are preventing themselves from reaching their highest potential and connection. Each man and woman, hold a delicate balance of yin (f) and yang (m) energy. Being conscious of how much each one is being fed will ensure that you are fully connected to your spirit and that you live the Goddess life you are meant to experience.

A balanced and healthy world is one where men are free to be men, and women free to be women. What a powerful place we would be living in if each person focused more on their personal journey’s and potential. With that said let’s start with ourselves and move outwards, we are no help to anything if we are not helping and embracing ourselves. Allow yourself to express your love and affection for life. Live in full connection.

 

-Love and Peace, J.

Are They Right For You? 5 Important Things To Ask Yourself

This is something I’ve been asking myself recently. Throughout my life I have attracted men easily which nearly always goes hand in hand with a long list of boyfriends. After my last relationship ended (this past January), I decided the next person I was going to give my body, mind and spirit to would be someone who I felt was completely right for me. This someone would match my soul, fit in with my life’s purpose, as well as cherish and uplift all that I am as a woman. In past relationships I found myself giving my needs or beliefs up, simply because my partner thought differently. Well…! There will be no more of that!

Too many times have I not paid attention to those warning signs in the beginning stages (that are always there), or not take into consideration my friends’ and family’s opinions. In my life, I have reached a point where quite frankly, am sick of spending time and energy, as well as enduring the disappointment and pain that follows all those failed relationships. What’s almost worse, is the right person you may have been able to find if you weren’t so focused on the wrong person. Part of figuring if someone is right for you or not entails not getting blindsided by what we all know as lust, crushing, or “the honeymoon stage.”

Questions I found helpful to ask before committing:

1. What do they expect out of this relationship? What do they expect of you? This might seem like a given, but it is one of the most valuable questions you can ask your partner, as well as yourself. Are they looking to be open or exclusive? Monogamous or polygamous? What is considered cheating? Other people’s views can differ greatly so it is important to never  assume that you know and to discuss what both of you are looking for. If by circumstance, you two hold different views on what is functional and healthy, try to discuss a basis on which you both are comfortable with. If no basis can be reached, don’t settle for what they expect of you. You know best as to what will work and fit into your life, and how you can optimally serve the relationship. Settling will only bring resentment or betrayal in your future together. It is always best to stay true to what you believe in, as hard as it may be to find, rather than commit yourself to something you won’t be able to stay committed to.

2. Are there any unhealthy/destructive habits or patterns? Have you noticed any behaviors that may be problematic in the future? As humans we are not perfect which in turn brings each of us our own imperfections. Things like leaving the toilet seat up are not what I mean by bad habits. Does this person try to dictate or control your actions and decisions? Do they tend to pick fights for no reason at all? What about how they fight? There are many ways we can choose to live out of fear and bad habit. Having a partner that hasn’t cleaned out the ghosts of their pasts or rid themselves of limiting fears will always find ways to bring that into your relationship. Whether they keep it in the form of jealousy, control, sensitivity, paranoia… it will be a strain on what you two are trying to create. Talking to them about their family life, and past relationships may help them to let go of these toxins. One thing to remember though is that you are not there to fix them. We are all responsible for our own experiences and lessons.

3. What kind of attitude do they hold in regards to their past? Future? Are they generally positive or negative? Do they blame others for past experiences? For anyone wanting to be able to put in %100, acceptance and responsibility needs to be put into action. Whatever happens in our world, we are responsible for. When we hold onto and live in fear, we create that fear. When we are able to love ourselves, accept, smile and look to the future, a future can exist. Like many others, I experienced creating exactly what I did not want. After I had been cheated on and betrayed, I played out that experience again by believing it was inevitable, and guess what? Where your intention lies, your destiny does also. Pay close attention to the attitudes that they express to you, as well as your own. This is a great way to acknowledge the things that may have slipped your (or their) letting go.

4. How does their ideal life fit in with your ideal life? What kind of career do they have, or are pursuing? Do they want a family? Marriage? Any desire to travel? More importantly, if you haven’t already, ask yourself these questions! The last thing you want is to find yourself in a life you never really wanted in the first place. Deciding what is important in your future will help filter out all the people who will just slow down your journey and pace of getting there. Think about what you can and can’t live without; the kind of relationship you want in the future. Two of my favorite words: Never Settle!

5. Do they accept you for who you are, unconditionally? Last but definitely not least… personally, this is where my deal-breaker lies. Do they communicate and express how much they love (or like) everything that makes you, you? Do they look at your past choices or “mistakes” (I believe nothing is a mistake) with judgment and ridicule, or acceptance and understanding? In a healthy relationship, both parties need to have the freedom of expression, without their partner’s impending expectations or disapproval. If you or your partner are holding onto any discrimination, disrespect or judgment in any form, love cannot and will not flourish. Love needs air to breathe and grow, it cannot grow in an environment full of restraint, fear and worry.

 

“You cannot save people, but you can love them. And that might just be enough”
–unknown

-Love and Peace, J.

Forgive Yourself First

“It’s not just other people we need to forgive, we also need to forgive ourselves.”
Ourselves?
“Yes, for all the things we didn’t do. All the things we should have done. You can’t get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened. That doesn’t help you when you get to where I am.”
-Morrie, “Tuesday’s With Morrie”-Mitch Albom

Most of us know that forgiveness plays an important part of our lives and our relationships. We know that in order to continue flourishing, we need to let go of grudges, release past emotions, and conquer our resentments. But what about that person who so rarely receives your forgiveness? The one who deserves it most?

That person is YOU. Who else in your life is more deserving of your acceptance, understanding and love? Without self forgiveness, and letting go of all the guilt you may carry in your heart, you will be heavily burdened. The time is now to move on from the past. Nothing can be changed, but something can be gained. Gain the wisdom and knowledge by tackling those haunted memories that bring you fear, guilt, insecurities, shame, anger, disappointment, self-doubt and at times depression. Love and accept yourself as an imperfect being, and replace those negatives, with lessons that serve you.

We are all meant to make mistakes, it’s part of what makes life so interesting as without them, we would have no growth. Learn to appreciate your mistakes, and see them as opportunities to grow and improve yourself. Embrace your flaws and let those expectations disappear with the rear view mirror. We are headed towards a new path now!

Live in the present, and stop carrying the past with you. We cannot change or control what has already happened, our powers are effective only when used in the Now, which in turn set the path for our tomorrows’. Free yourself of all past energies that don’t bring value into your life and replace them with new thoughts of positivity and encouragement. Love can and will not exist, when you are focused on anything fear- based.

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”  Gandhi

Sometimes we can think of forgiveness as a weakness, as if we are saying it is “okay” to make that mistake, but the act of forgiving is quite the opposite, it is a sign of strength. To forgive, whether it’s for your own mistakes, or what someone else has done, is a gift to yourself; there is nothing more self-serving, than releasing the negative resentments we tend to hold on to for too long.
Let it go. Most of the things we have a hard time letting go of, weren’t initially intended to hurt us but somehow ended up as less desirable outcomes; people make mistakes. Love yourself in order to love others, try to develop the ability to see people and our experiences as lessons. Exercise your mind and heart to release self-limiting attachments, and anything you find stunting your growth.

-love and peace, J.

Being Your Own Source Of Light

Let’s face it, sometimes it can be hard to be all that we are capable of, especially  in situations that target our emotional state. In this world throughout all the chaotic experiences we have, it is important to focus on being our own source of light and positivity. It is too easy, as well as self-suffering to let others’ demands and emotions hold reign over our right to freely express, and be.

“No one can make you jealous, angry, vengeful, or greedy – unless you let him.” Napoleon Hill

I had a situation today which instilled major disappointment, sadness and betrayal. What this person chose to do, instantly made me feel undesirable, mistreated, disrespected, undervalued and taken advantage of. I could not separate my feelings from his choice because I had invested so deeply, enabling it to affect my whole morning and afternoon. One thing I knew, is this didn’t feel good. Having a long day ahead of me, I knew I needed to do something for myself and my well-being. How backwards it would have been if I let one circumstance, if I let another person’s bad decision, affect my whole day.

At first, I tried to meditate and still my mind. I laid down on my bed, trying to quiet all the negative thoughts that were doing circles in my head; needless to say, this did not work. Sometimes your mind isn’t meant to be quieted and left behind, certain thoughts needing to run its course. When I realized this wasn’t going to work, I got even more negative, depressed, and I started to feel very generic. I am grateful I am able to recognize self-limiting patterns, and not feed too much energy into them.

I began to think of everything that I had which was good in my life. I am grateful for my home, my freedom, my loving soul, my friends, my family, my cat… I thought to myself: “I am appreciative of me.” As soon as I took the time to recognize that, I felt a warm light up above my head, already having my eyes closed, I began to envision this light enshrouding my whole body, being and spirit. This light was warm, bright, accepting, but most of all, it warmed with pure love. Creating this light source around myself helped remind me that I was safe, I am healthy, I am beautiful, I am imperfectly perfect, and that I am not responsible for other people’s decisions. How someone decides to treat me does not depict how I should be treated or is in any relation to what I deserve to have. The only person who holds a valued opinion about who I am, is myself.

I took my power back. I went on with my day which happened to be an emotionally demanding one, and was able to stay leveled. We need to remember we always have a choice in how we react to certain things and how we express ourselves. We are spiritual beings capable to be conscious enough to switch our negatives to positive ones and to be in full charge of our own happiness. Which do you choose, living in light? Or darkness?

I choose light.

“Man’s power of choice enables him to think like an angel or a devil, a king or a slave. Whatever he chooses, mind will create and manifest.” – Frederick Bailes

-love and peace, J.